Kayce
This dragon shit. This angel bird dragon demon songform seraphim whatever shit. I think some stuff clicked.
Jacey
Yeah?
Kayce
If they're on a bigger planet than us, they're from a
what the fuck a, from asimpler harmonic ratio?
Then they're like. more zoomed out than we are.
like. visible existence spectrum-wise.
Jacey
Right, the Drek Spectrum has a wider gamut. What are you asking about?
Kayce
A few things.
Last night when I was falling asleep I visualized this like
Crystaline. Petrified wood sort of thing, like a small totem or a charm, but it looked like me
As I held it, i felt something, curl around me. Like wings. I ran my finger along the piece and I felt a tallon run up my spine. Like, gave me chills, made me puff out.
And i zoomed out, and felt like a dragon viewing myself in that small totem, feeling... nested, by the light from the window.
Then I felt like the source of that light, a star staring into this small nest.
Jacey
It sounds like you're seeing up the chain of dimensional selves.
Kayce
But that means we're just totems, right?
Jacey
?
Kayce
Like the dragons, they're above us. They carve us. Like this whole fucking, time and history and, experience and like.
Jacey
It's enclosed.
Kayce
It's in a bubble and the fucking dragons are blowing it. We're the irridescent faberge egg centered in the cymatic resonance of the harmony of the machine elves. And the egg is all of our perception of time in our experience out to the boundaries of our understanding and like
Jacey
Like it's a stage and a play. The set and the backdrop are set up before the play starts. After it ends, the actors get done with their roles and the set is torn down. Like our lives are just set up, there was a period before where we weren't here and happening, and after we're done here, there will be a time where this all dissolves and our lives are the same way, but it's all this enclosed event, a story. And we're play acting.
Kayce
Yeah, i feel that and they wrote the shit.
Jacey
You wrote that shit, Kayce. You said you felt like the dragon holding you. Your more expansive self has carved the current you out of the stock of matter the planet has to offer. They're not more powerful than us. They are us. We are extensions of them.
Kayce
Expect a call from Adrian. Apparently our dragon friends have been around a long time.
Jacey
They have, the dragon plane helps set the stage.
Kayce
Regardless of how much control I have in dragon angel bird demon universe, which i doubt is very much at all, tearing the shell away HERE is taking the stage down HERE.
Jacey
You know about that?
Kayce
Cyper told me about it just now. We're all going to get burnt up by raw neutron star radiation and converted to strange matter if we don't have a reason to be in the capital.
Jacey
I know. We've been trying to figure shit out.
Kayce
I'm starting to get anxious about this shit, I went back to work after calling Adrian on my break and I was shaking the whole fucking time.
Jacey
I know how that feels, why do you think I do so many drugs?
Kayce
You need to refrain from tripping to birdland so much. And I need to figure out how to even begin to explain this shit to Friday.
Jacey
Right.
Kayce
She doesn't know how the shell works, or the sun even, she doesn't know where we even come from, let alone how much of society now is based on shit the Old Humans made up. She doesn't know how the government works. Where do I start?
Jacey
You're not going to, that's the point.
Kayce
The point?
Jacey
Everyone needs fall-backs in case this doesn't happen. Do you want to be stuck in the Capital if nothing happens and get stuck paying out your ass just to live there because you have nowhere to come back to?
Kayce
So. You want to not take friday, to make sure I can have a place to live if nothing happens?
Jacey
Right.
Kayce
And what if it does happen?
Jacey
Be conservative with which what-ifs you explore. If you can explain the severity to Friday, be my guest. She's not budging. She's too in her own head.
Kayce
God damn it. I don't know why she's like this. Back when she just did speedrunning you could at least have a back and forth conversation with her, but now she's so stuck in that vlog girl energy she just doesn't…
Jacey
You need to make that effort, I've been trying too hard. But what about you, you were hoping to get hired by someone in the capital, right? How's your rich finance friend?
Kayce
He still wants to hire me.
Jacey
He could be a better foot in the door for you than Christov. Is he nice?
Kayce
He's Hollow and shallow. Interesting life story, kind of. He's married and has kids, though.
Jacey
You're telling me your sugar daddy is a hollow, shallow skeeve?
Kayce
I'm really not sure what I expected. Not sure this will be worth it.
Kayce
On the plus side, I wrote this.
Jacey
This is the gayest angst I've heard from you.
Kayce
Thanks that means so much from you.